Thanks to all who helped to cheer me up yesterday - it means so much to know that people are out there pulling for you!! So after the weekend from hell, I sent hubby the apology that basically said - yeah you're an ass but I should have been more forgiving, blah, blah, blah........you know trying to be the adult in the situation. Well of course Mr. Ken Doll is way to quick to jump on that apology and let me shoulder the blame - now mind you, on his birthday (Saturday), rather than coming home to the steak and crab dinner that I fixed for him, he chose to spend 18 hours at the casino - yep - poker is his addiction and at times it takes priority over EVERYTHING.......sooooo frustrating! Anyway, after feeding his steak to the dog on Sunday morning he apologized and I just sulked.......my feelings were so hurt and I was soooo frustrated with him but in the end I apologized yesterday for sulking and letting the fight linger. SO last night he tells me that he doesn't think the problem was as much Saturday as it is that we don't spend enough time together.........gee - you think genius........what are you a rocket scientist??? Hell I have been saying that for the last few months - we are losing touch, we don't spend any time together, are schedules are totally going in different directions, turn off your computer and quit playing cards all the time, help me more around the house and with your son..........again just more of the same thing over and over - actually probably the same things that every woman says!! So after allowing me to shoulder some of the blame he did stand in the kitchen and help me cook his dinner - looks like things are back on the up at least for now??
On a food note - I did manage to accidently dig out some gooey, cold, baked ziti........can someone please explain to me what my affection is for cold pasta?? Oh don't forget the banana chips that accidently fell into my mouth or the huge bowl of watermelon and strawberries (I know that fruit isn't bad but I wasn't the least bit hungry - just eating to eat) - and the chocolate milk.....oh yeah there was the frozen cool whip too...........yikes!!! See that is my problem - I won't consume a whole bag of chips but I eat until I am uncomfortable........I also eat when I am happy, sad, angry, confused, tired, bored or lonely - people say "before you eat, evaluate your feelings" - okay........what do you do when every feeling creates the need to eat??? On the up swing - I have a root canal today so that accomplishes 2 things - I won't be able to overeat (kind of like the wire your mouth shut diet) and I won't have to "make-up" with hubby if you know what I mean......I know, I'm awful but my feelings are still hurt and I still feel the need to shield myself for a bit. I'm no longer bitter or angry just a little hurt and I want to nurse it for a while longer - maybe that is wrong but I just can't throw my heart right back out there. I AM glad to be over the "I am miserable so my plan is to eat a whole bag of chocolate marshmallows".........by the way - has anyone had these - WOW!!! They are soooooo freaking good - 2 big fat gooey choco marshmallows for 1 point - the problem is really "who only eats 2 marhsmallows???"
To close this out - I have some great recipes that are super easy and I am going to try to get those posted soon - I also have some more pictures that I need to get up but won't be able to do much tonight cause I'm having a root canal...........you know, who would have ever thought that a root canal could possibly save my life???