An actual update....

Finally an update. I know, I know – I’ve been gone FOREVER but I had no idea how all consuming motherhood is. WOW – I run from the moment I get up (most mornings at 6:00 a.m.) until I drop into bed at around 10:30 p.m. Since starting back to work I feel like I need to spend every second that I can with my little guy. That means that my usual form of exercise is breastfeeding and running up and down the stairs a zillion times. I occasionally do bundle Will up for a walk but that is few and far between. To tell you the truth, as anxious as I am to fit back into my size 4’s, I’m not willing to sacrifice the time with him. I feel good about being a mommy and I refuse to put off playing Will for a spin class. Not right now. I’m sure I’ll get back into my groove at some point but NOTHING beats watching his face light up when I get home from work. So for right now I’m trying to watch what I eat and just play it by ear. I am still breastfeeding some but I don’t think that is helping my weight. In fact I know it isn’t. It may be because we are having to supplement due to low supply……evidently PCOS is not kind to moms who want to breastfeed. I’ve been taking all kinds of stinky herbs, eating oatmeal and drinking water but it isn’t really helping. I’m not sure what else to do but to give him what I can and supplement where it’s needed.



As for Will, what can I say except that he is the joy of my life. Before he was born I spent so much time worrying that he wouldn’t like me or that I wouldn’t like being a mom. I was afraid that I wouldn’t be good at it or that the lifestyle change would short circuit me (I HATE change). The truth is that it has been exactly the opposite. God I can’t even put into words how in love I am with my little love bug. There are days that I am exhausted and there are days that I feel so disconnected from Rich but they are getting further and further apart. Don’t get me wrong I love my husband but there are times when I want to curl up with Will and just spend the whole day staring at him. I want to keep him all to myself and not share him. J I used to love being busy but now I feel the need to slow things down and try to enjoy the moment. Things like Will singing with me in the morning, the way he curls up against my chest when I pick him up. Or the sleepy look that he gives when I wake him up in the mornings. He is really such a happy baby and I am constantly amazed at how incredibly blessed I am. He was worth every treatment, every tear, every pound, every sleepless night. There is nothing that compares to holding my son in my arms.



Okay I need to get back to work now but I promise to update again soon.



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Pictures

He is here!

Sorry for not posting sooner but things have been a little hectic. Baby Will arrived safely on the 18th with only 4 hours of labor and 30 minutes of pushing......his mommy was so happy that things went so smoothly. We did have some dips in his heartrate which sent everyone into a tailspin but we got it back up and he made it here with nothing more than a cone head! He weighed a whopping 6 pounds even and was 19 and a half inches long - can someone please tell me where the other 54 pounds came from?? Just kidding - I am absolutely, totally head over heels in love with him......I can't imagine what I ever did without him!

I feel great and we were released from the hospital on Saturday - just in time for all the Christmas festivities. Thank you all for your prayers and your support. He is an absolute miracle and I can't believe that he is mine! I promise to update soon but for now the breastfeeding is keeping me pretty tied up. I know why they say you lose weight while breastfeeding - geez you have no time to eat yourself! I hope you all had a great Christmas and I have a ton of pictures to share!!

(((HUGS))) from Baby Will's mommy!

Let the countdown begin!

14 days and counting to be exact - yep, we are having a baby on the 18th of this month!! Oh my gosh!!! I am still sitting here in absolute disbelief at the thought of holding my little boy in 2 weeks. I can't even begin to describe what an amazing, incredible, frightening, difficult yet completely worth it journey that infertility and pregnancy has been. On top of the 60 pounds - yep I said 60 - that I've gained there is so much more. Amazing things have transpired in my life over the last 30 months - I've experienced some of the greatest sadness and joys of my life.......all wrapped up in 30 months. My hubby and I have become so much closer, more in love and truly best friends. I've learned to ask for help and to let other love me. I had no idea what kind of journey we would be on when we decided to start "trying". I can honestly say that I wouldn't trade one day of it for anything in the world. The truth is.......God does always know what is best for us.

According to Dr. H, Will is low and I'm about a fingertip dilated. Nothing to really write home about even though I've been having contractions for the last several days. My blood pressure is still good and other than the scale creeping up like crazy I have no complaints.

I finally got my new camera so I really need to get my butt in gear and get some pictures of the nursery - maybe I'll work on that this weekend. Oh I also need to pack my bags, have the car detailed and put together the various baby contraptions that we have. Oh and attend my 6th and final baby shower on Sunday - man this is going to be a busy 2 weeks!!

Thank you all so much for your support while I've been on this journey. I'm really going to need a kick in the butt to get back in shape once this baby is here so please stick around!

(((HUGS)))

Quick Update

Not sure if anyone even comes around anymore but I just wanted to give a quick update. Work has blocked Blogger so it's hard for me to get updates together right now. Baby WIll and I are doing fine and everyone is betting that i don't make it until Christmas? We'll see I guess? I have dropped and have had some contractions but that means nothing especially since I was almost three weeks late and my mom was in labor for 3 days. Yeah, I was a real sweet kid, huh??

Speaking of my birth, today is my 30th birthday and I feel so incredibly blessed. A baby on the way, a great family, an amazing hubby and a new house.........what more could I ask for?? Oh and I got breakfast in bed this morning and the hubby bought me a strand of pearls - yep I cried!

In other news - baby Will is growing like crazy and so am I. We just had maternity pictures taken on Saturday and I'm amazed at how HUGE I look.......I'm okay with it but I am anxious to meet my little boy.......less than 5 weeks to go! Everything is ready to go with the exception of my bags being packed. I'll save that for next weekend. Christmas shopping is done, nursery is done, 5 baby showers completed - yep, I had 5 and I have one more on December 7th. People have been so generous and we are running out of room for all the stuff that this little guy has accumulated! He is going to be one spoiled little boy!

Gotta run and get ready for church but I'll try to get pictures of the nursery up asap.

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For Swizzlepop

Your comment made me cry cause I miss you so much!! At least email me and let me know how things are going. We're soul sisters, remember!! :~)

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I LOVE the scale!

Finally I had an appointment with NO, yep I said NO, weight gain!! I have been trying so hard to watch my calories and eat healthy and finally I feel like it paid off. The funny thing is that I did almost zero walking over the last 3 weeks. Between being sick and then just being plain busy, I became a slacker. I'm really hoping that the next 8 weeks go just like the last 3-4 have. Great progress with the baby and good healthy appointments for me. Baby Will is head down and the doc says he looks perfect.

I went to a breastfeeding class on Saturday and got some great information. I'm hoping that I can breastfeed but I'm not going to fall apart if I can't. There are so many health benefits for the baby and mom, that I would feel crazy to not at least give it a shot. The only thing that I'm worried about is Rich's involvment. He is such a hands on kind of dad and is adamant that he get his time with Will. I'm hoping that after the first couple of weeks we can work on him bottle feeding at least once a day. They say you should wait four weeks but by then I may be a total mess?? Guess we'll have to see how it plays out.

Okay gotta get back to work - the days aren't long enough anymore!

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