First let me say that I have missed you guys sooooo much!! I feel completely out of the loop and lost when I'm not hanging with my Barbie's. So much has happened, including gym visits, doctor visits, test results, fights with Ken, the job change and an unsightly affair with some sugar free maple syrup......did anyone know that syrup on an ice cream cone tastes like a waffle - well unfortunately I found out the hard way and managed to eat a whole box of cones and a bottle of syrup in a week.........not that bad calorie wise but way too hard on the intestines......can you say bathroom Barbie!! Not a pretty sight!
On to the exercise front - rode 10 miles on the bike on Saturday and decided since there was no class last night that I would just hit the treadmill - so imagine Trixie, yeah I was feeling sassy yesterday - in pink workout pants and a t-shirt and her purple and silver Nike's - I had my little pink backpack and I felt like Gym Barbie - then the freaking treadmill attacked me! Well actually it lured me in with it's gentle motion and soft purr........oh sweet treadmill! I love you - you are relaxing and a great stress reliever - where have you been all my life! Walk, walk, walk - I start to feel a trickle of sweat.....oh yeah, Barbie has her groove on!! Then I decided to up the pace and start the little jogging motion.......that is when the damn thing freaked out! Suddenly I was being hurled backwards at a rapid pace - holy crap......what the hell is happening to me!! I should have known that trying to be cute and jog do not mix for Barbie - hell, trying to walk in a straight line is a challenge so why in the world would I think that I would have the ability to run on a treadmill......all I can think of is the guy that is really cute and really running, on the treadmill right beside me........here he is blonde and sweaty staring in horror at a crazy bitch next to him that is grasping for the handrails to stop the madness! It was humiliating.......every time I would speed up to catch the rails, my damn foot would hit the side of the treadmill and down I would go........seriously, girls I thought about just riding all the way back to the floor but that doesn't really work either! FINALLY, I was able to get both my feet to a nonmoving portion of this insane machine and turn down the pace!! I'm a little concerned with my lack of coordination........I being serious here - I have none and now my bod bud K wants to hook up on some dance fusion class........yeah that's what I need to be doing......dancing around like a retard in front of a room full of people! I'd feel like a damn Teletubby on crack or something.......I'm thinking it isn't for me! Other than that I am totally digging the gym BUT now Ken is freaking out now.......says he feels like I'm never home and I have to admit that hitting the gym after work does put me at home around 8 every night but damnit I am really getting into this and I feel so empowered! He is the typical guy who does not want any part of the gym so I'm feeling torn - I'm hoping that maybe I can do something to boost his ego and then he will cut me a break......we'll see but I'm not giving it up - even if I have to sneak away to go!!
On to test results, according to the Doc I'm insulin resistant - soooooooo I have to start taking Glucophage (meds for diabetics) to help regulate that.......good news is that I finally have some kind of concrete diagnosis for not being able to get off this last 10 pounds. He says thte infertility is due to this as well and ultimately diagnosed me with PCOS. He was amazed at my weight loss as women with PCOS typically have a hard shedding the pounds. He did tell me that I have to up my protein so I now using some protein powder before and after my workouts......we'll see how it goes. He says the Glucophage won't cause me to lose weight but it will even the playing field so that I will be able to lose weight at a more normal rate........really I just get so frustrated at the fact that eating any carbs puts the weight on me........bread, potatoes, pasta, rice - all the good stuff - makes me blow up like a buffalo. He also says that could be what causes me to retain so much fluid??? I don't know really but for right now I'm gonna run with it and see what happens!
Tonight is Spin Class with the cycling Nazi - can't wait to pump up the jam to more Michael Jackson........God help me - maybe I should wear one glove to class tonight! I told my buddy K that I was going to get a t-shirt printed that says "I used to weigh 400 pounds" - maybe then that crazy bitch would cut me some slack!
One last thing - Pink Hope Barbie inspired me so much with her 60 mile walk that I have started a team for the 5K race in Dallas - the walk/run is October 20th and I am sooooo excited.....we've got about 8 people already so I hope that it is a success! Thanks so much Matty for inspiring me!!
I HEART you all!!