This picture makes me cry!

This picture makes me cry!
Thought it was time to change my picture

Thursday, November 1, 2007

I found cheap (calorie/point wise) chocolate & update on SIL...

Okay so I need to update on day 2 & 3 of the eating challenge but I'm skipping straight to the good stuff - you know what I'm talking about - the reason that you all are still reading this......CHOCOLATE!! Not just chocolate but points friendly chocolate!! I've actually had them before but my healthfood store quit carrying them so I had to go online and order them - they are called Chocolite and you can order them at www.healthsmartfoods.com - now I'm not going to lie to you, they are a little pricey but they are really good and 1 point for 2 pieces of chewy, nutty, chocolatey candy. So in my quest to buy candy, I also found 1 point protein bars - I'm talking 10 grams of fiber and 9 grams of protein - what the heck!!! All of that for 100 calories??? My theory was if they were only a 100 calories then they must taste like brown colored cardboard, right?? WRONG again........they were really good and filling - which is suprising since my appetite resembles the Grand Canyon on most days. I also ordered their milkshake mix which is 20 calories and 6 grams of fiber for a serving.......shake that up in 8 ounces of soy milk and 4 ounces of water - WOW!! I don't think I've been this happy since Bon Jovi's last stop in Dallas!! Seriously, you all should check out your healthfood stores and see if they carry this stuff, if not, maybe you could start a petition??

On to the boring junk - eating was okay yesterday but I didn't get to go to the gym due to Halloween so I was a little off. Not to mention, I started feeling sick and then I got my snazzy chocolate in the mail - that is just a recipe for disaster!! I did good though - I held on and stayed at about 1550 calories for the day - the problem is still that I eat when I'm not hungry. It's like my brain is in such a habit of eating dinner before bed that even if I'm not hungry I can't sleep if I don't eat. This is what warped eating patterns get you.......seriously screwed up mental disorders regarding food and how it relates to EVERYTHING. So now I have to decide - eat and sleep - or no eat and no sleep??? Again, just one of the many things that I need to work on. All I can say is that I am working on it......I do great all day and then cave at home - I'm thinking maybe I should get my jaws wired shut??

I really need to hit spin class tonight because I missed last night and I'm going to miss tomorrow but I don't know......I really don't feel so hot. I think I'm working on getting a cold or sinus infection, yuck!

One last thing before I go back into insanity land.......thank you all so much for the prayers for my family and sister in law. I honestly can feel the support through your comments and emails and it means so much. The advice and encouragement have been unmeasurable and I can't thank you all enough! My SIL did meet with her Oncologist on Tuesday and they are going to change the recipe up a bit - of course they won't do anything for a few weeks because her platelets are dangerously low AGAIN! They did remind her that she will never be cured......it won't go away. Evidently the next conversation that she had was with her 10 year old daughter - she had to explain that at some point in the future, there would be nothing left to do but cherish every moment and try to stay comfortable - basically, she is terminal.....this isn't the flu or a surgery - without a miracle, she will die - how the heck do you explain that to your child??? I am praying for a miracle - I am believing for one and I know that you all are pulling for her too. Thank you again! I {{{HEART}}} you all!

5 comments:

tina said...

I will have to check out the health food store here which i have never been to. I always figured they had like you said stuff that taste like card board. Well i hope you get to feeling better and i will keep you SIl in my prayers.

Scale Junkie said...

Congrats on your sweet treat finds!

My prayers are going out to your SIL and her daughter, a 10 year old shouldn't lose her Mommy.

{{{{HUGS}}}}

Diet Coke and Zingers said...

Yay for low point chocolate! I'm going hunting... Your family and especially that little girl, are in my thoughts!

MMalloy said...

Mmm..thanks for the chocolate info.

I believe in miracles and I am praying that Gods strength is with your SIL and your entire family. Keep believing, prayer has strong powers.

swizzlepop said...

I will have to check out that site and my Healt Food store. Not that I am a chocolate fan but I do like a high protein and high fiber bar!

As far as your needing to eat before bed...do you have to chew or just have something in your belly? If it's the latter then how about a glass of milk/soy milk before bed. Warm is better, it will even help you sleep and give you a bit more protein. I do it all the time just because.

Miracles do happen you just can't give up. Tell your SIL to stay positive, attitude makes a difference too. I too am hoping for a miracle for her and your family!