This picture makes me cry!

This picture makes me cry!
Thought it was time to change my picture

Thursday, January 17, 2008

What did I do to ever deserve......

Such an incredible support group - really, you all are amazing women and your encouragement and comments helped me be able to face the hubby last night. So we talked or I should say I talked mostly but it was good - if no other reason than to let him know my feelings and where I stood on the issues. He didn't say much but rather looked like a scolded child - I know that he felt bad about the whole situation but his actions really hurt my feelings and that isn't going to work. Things will be fine - we are a strong couple but there are times when I don't have the guts to just say what I feel - you all helped to motivate me to get it out in the open so thanks!

So tonight is spin class and then tomorrow is a day of rest - I need it. The drama this week has left me a little ragged but I feel good in spite of it. I'm strong and I'm even stronger because of all my blogging buddies. I wonder if we really realize what an incredible support system we have......I started thinking about it last night after getting some great advice from a few bloggers - the issues that I was having I could have never shared with someone who knew the hubby & I in real life. People hold grudges and don't always have the ability to offer unbiast advice when they are close to a situation. Not to mention, I'm a pretty private person about our marriage issues so having an outlet like our group is HUGE for me!

On other fronts - I seem to have become quite addicted to raw mushrooms - no idea why but suddenly I'm craving whole, raw mushrooms.....I look like a freak of nature while sitting at my desk inhaling mushrooms. One guy walked past me yesterday and looked a little confused - he says "you do know what those grow in, right?" - LMAO - yeah I know! I wish I could be one of those people that didn't have such insane eating know craving mushrooms or boiled okra. Snorting pudding powder....eating raw noodles......egg whites every night for dinner. There is no end to my food insanity!

Okay girls - I'm off to cycle my heart out! Hugs to you all!


WeightBGone said...


I am happy you got things worked out with hubby. You two seem to have a solid marriage and talking about things is always the best.

You like boiled okra?? So do I and everyone up north thinks I am crazy when I eat it but thats the southern girl coming out in me.

Have yourself a wonderful weekend!

jodi said...

i'm glad you guys had a talk... it's hard for me to bring certain things up to my boyfriend too but i know it's healthy to talk about things, and not keep it bottled-up... it's just always been a fear of mine that if i said something negative, i would be left standing in the cold (even though i know in my heart that would never happen)... anyway, i'm sure you feel better so enjoy your day off... :o)

Kathy said...

Can't say I've ever craved any of those things!

melissious said...

ewwwww!! Raw mushrooms?!?! I was okay until you said WHOLE raw shrooms! I'll eat them cut up in a salad, but... eek! I was snacking on grape tomatoes at my desk today (along with a couple of WW cakes.) Mmmmm. :)

Scale Junkie said...

I'm so glad you talked. I know what you mean about not being able to say things to those too close to your situation, they will look at him in a different light and thats the last thing you want or need. It makes perfect sense to me. I'm just glad you were able to work it out.

I wish I would crave vegetables. I've been craving fruit so I guess its a start?

I know what you mean about having a great group of blogging buddies, we are lucky aren't we!

Sending big HUGS your way my friend.

desertmama said...

Isn't it funny how many of us are private people in real life but can share our own personal journeys (and the challenges) online?
Glad to hear that you and Ken talked. Sometimes getting the conversation started is the hardest part.

MMalloy said...

Thanks for thinking of me yesterday Steph, it means so much to have you all.
I am so glad to hear that our prayers were with you and that you were able to talk things out.
Mmmm, LOVE mushrooms. I used to eat them raw but lately I have been steaming them.

Amanda said...

I like mushroomw, but not THAT much! :)

I am so glad you and hubby talked. I've been thinking of you so glad to hear you are doing good!

NCChris said...

I'm glad you guys had a chance to communitcate! That's always the first step to resolution! You are one brave, strong Barbie to not let it fester!


PS: I love Okra cooked any way!

melissious said...

I had to come back and say you are such an inspiration. Your story is amazing. Plus, you're such a strong woman. It takes guts and control to be able to face your problems and TALK about them with your spouse. Very cool.

MMalloy said...

Just thinking about you. Hope you are having a better week!