So after everyone's comments (THANKS YOU GUYS!!) I did it. When I say I did it I mean, I ate what I planned to eat and stayed fairly in control. I did end up eating late because I was helping my son with a science fair project but I did manage to eat a well rounded, smaller meal. I already feel more in control and I know that continuing to "suck it up" will only enhance this feeling. I also managed to get some breakfast in me this morning - another huge victory for me!
Last night at the gym was good - our usual instructor is out because her husband passed away unexpectedly.......my heart just breaks for her. I can't imagine being 55 years old, a total health nut and having my highschool sweetheart die of a heart attack. This tragedy really sparks a fire under my butt to require better eating habits of my hubby. I swear, he eats crap most of the time but it's partly my fault for buying him cupcakes and cookies. I need to start making healthy choices for him so that he can get back into the habit for himself. I need the guy to be around for a while longer!!
On a more positive note - I tallied my time in the gym for January and after Thursday's workout I will have completed 1195 minutes in the gym......burning approximately 11,295 calories - I can't believe it. I also guesstimate the miles I ride during each cycle class and all of those tallied comes out to 295 miles!!! WOW - I have to say that I am really proud of myself.....it feels so good to find an exercise that I enjoy doing.
All of that being said - I enjoy healthy food and working out but I'm still struggling with the mental/emotional issues. I'm feel like I keep finding skeletons in closets that I thought I had cleaned out. Some days I feel like I'm dealing with the same issues over and over.....eating out of boredom is the biggest problem. If I'm busy then I don't even think about it but when I have nothing to do - I want to eat! I also associate food with so many things - hell, I associate food with certain TV shows - like Extreme Home Makeover - I ALWAYS eat popcorn when I watch that show......in fact, in an effort to break that habit this past Sunday, I refused to watch the show - LOL! Sometimes I feel sorry for my family, simply because I am so neurotic about things. My plan is to get my butt back in gear with my emotional/food ties and then start incorporating healthy things back into the lives of my husband/son. I have really let "stuff" get in the way of taking family walks, cooking more well rounded meals & preparing healthy snacks. The good thing is that I realize this and am totally prepared to change it. I may have to drag them kicking and screaming but that's okay!
I'll report back tomorrow with more OP news!!!
Thanks again for all of your support - I wouldn't be able to make it without you all!