So it's confession time again at the Barbie blog and I have a list a mile long. To start with I am still really battling this "fat girl" mentality. I'm fighting hard but I keep seeing 400 pound Stephanie in the mirror. Really this is the first time since I began this journey that I have felt semi-out of control. This is bad because not only do I feel run down from the mental battle but I'm teetering on the edge of self hatred. I have bad habits, we all do, but I like to be in control of mine and at this current junction in my life - well, I'm just not. So, I'm asking for a little help with accountability.....where do you guys come in??? I need a couple of people to police me just a bit......you know the drill - bitch at me, keep me in check, ask me if I'm keeping up with my goals, remind me that I have to change my habits and that it will only take a few days of hard work to get me back in gear.......I know it's a lot to ask but I AM DESPERATE girls! Let me just tell you what I'm trying to do:
1. Eating after the gym - ONLY when I'm hungry
2. If I am hungry when I get home from the gym then I should eat as soon as I get home and eat only until I'm satisfied.
3. Eating breakfast in the morning.
4. Making a food plan and sticking to it.
So for the next week I am going to work at eating when I'm hungry but not so late.....I know this is a huge issue for me and I have to stop this habit. I am not entitled to eat because I worked hard at the gym......I have to revert back to the basics and remember that this is a new place in my journey - I have to strategize and find new ways to make this work so I'm giving this a shot. I'm going to post how I'm doing but if you guys don't see something from me tomorrow regarding my progress then start yelling! I am much happier when I feel like I'm in control of my own actions. That sounds silly because I utimately am the only one that controls what goes in my mouth but I swear that there is a devil on my shoulder most of the time......he yells, BREAD, FRITOS, PEANUTS, CANDY.......well I'm sick of hearing him so I'm going to start yelling back at him! Will you raise your voice with me??
Thanks to you all for reading, supporting, commenting and just being fab!!