It's Do or Die!!

So today is the big day - let's just hope it isn't "big" - the terror of the weigh in. Ughhhh - don't know why I am sooo nervous, maybe because I have been eating more. I have been doing this on purpose though but it's just the mindset of diet = eating less, losing weight equates to deprivation, right??? Well that isn't true and I know it so I have consciously been trying to make better food choices more often. You know, breakfast, lunch and dinner........what a novel idea! So I have been averaging about 27 points a day on workout days - this makes me nervous!! I have ramped up the protein via FF cottage cheese, tuna, egg whites and milk. I think I actually got in 100 grams one day last week! Also have been trying to limit the carbs to a degree......my goal for this weekend is to not eat any fruit after 6:00 p.m. - fruit in itself isn't bad but the sugar/glucose that it creates causes issues for me and I can put on weight by eating fruit late at night (which I do every night) so this weekend I am going to have my fruit for breakfast with my milk.

I ran across a great website that has a lot of information about strength training and diet - www.shapefit.com - really has some interesting nutrition info.....you can also log your activity, food intake and get meal plans - you should check it out if you have spare time! Based on my goals, I am planning to weight train on Monday/Friday and Tues/Thur is spin class. That leaves Wed/Sat with my step aerobics with weights, so I'm good for cardio and weights on these days. I can tell that things are firming up - my hips don't spread quite so far when I sit and my pants are now baggy in the butt. I can start to see a hint of muscle definition so at least I know that my hardwork is paying off! I still can't believe that I have actually gotten into this gym/exercise thing........so unlike me! Next week I'm going to miss a spin class because we are going to the first preseason hockey game of the year (GO STARS!!!)........I think this will be good for my body - a little bonus rest during the week!

Okay last thing - if you like protein bars and peanut butter than you should try the Snickers Marathon Low Carb bar in Peanut Butter - is 170 calories, 7 grams of fat, 8 grams of fiber and 18 grams of protein! An added bonus is that there is only 1 gram of sugar and 18 grams of carbs. I love these things - they are not overly sweet - are very rich and peanut buttery and they are substantial - you know, chewy and heavy - you actually feel like you ate something as oppossed to some of the bars that seem like a minature candy bar! I love these things and have started packing one in my gym bag for right after spin class or any high intensity workout - they help get me going again and I don't feel so wiped out! I find that at Super Walmart of Walgreens/CVS Drugstores.

All right - I'll report back on the scale story this evening. Gonna finish up work, rush out at 4:00 to pickup the kiddo, hit the gym for some weights and weigh in..........ohhhhh I'm nervous - please, please, please send me some good vibes! I just don't want to get freaked out and discouraged and if the scale moves up anymore I may have a meltdown!