Yep - that's right. It is over, finished, done - I'm sick of his shit!!! This morning was the final straw.......what am I talking about you ask - the F***ing scale - that rat bastard has betrayed me once again. I get up this morning feeling slightly Trixieish after a few ass-busting days at the gym and some high protein days........I'm feeling like I've lost weight - things (ass and thighs) look tighter, pants a bit more lose......I'm hopeful that we can make this work. I'm really working at this relationship and I thought that for once he would give just an inch - I wasn't asking for much - hell I would have taken a cheap thrill but no, no. So I step on the scale - back to the mirror cause Barbie in a naked state is not the way that I want to wake up in the morning! Look down, totally expecting a friendly smile from Mr. Scale - what I got was a great big fuck you from him.......up 10 pounds from 3 weeks ago - WTF - seriously, no way!! So what did this Barbie do........I'm a bit embarrased to even admit this but I took the crowbar that was laying on the floor beside it and beat the shit out of it - I was soooo pissed but damn I felt good after I got done! My next step was to kick the bastard out of the house - screw him - I don't need him!! I am working really hard I don't need some cheap ass scale trying to bring me down. I also don't need his smug looks EVERY SINGLE TIME I step on him........I don't need his approval to feel good about myself! So my new motto is - how do my clothes feel/look and how does my body feel.........okay, that will probably be my motto until I go out and buy a new scale but hey for today - I'm focusing on the fact that I can't grab such a large hunk of fat on either side of my butt!
As for exercise, it's been tough - I've gone but I've just felt off the last 2 classes. Like I couldn't push myself as hard......actually in Wednesday's class, which was full to the max, I freaking fell off the step.......after 4 weeks of this and I just fell over! K was totally rolling on the floor with laughter and the lady behind me was horrified! I tried to regain my composure while holding a weight and rubbing my sore ass........then of course I looked down and realized that the seam of my pants had split - not sure if that was the sign for "hey your butt is too big for these pants" or if I just caught them on the step - I'm going with I tore them on the step! Even after that escapade I managed to haul my butt back there last night for Spin Class - thinking I would redeem myself but I just couldn't push it like I wanted to. I think I really wore myself out on Tuesday or that I'm just worn out period??? All the house mess is making it hard for me to relax at night and get some sleep........hopefully I can finish up some projects this weekend and that will help! I am going to hit the gym tonight and try some weight training - with my lack of coordination this could be dangerous so I'll keep you all updated!
One last thing - if you girls have never tried the BOCA Burger Crumbles - OMG - they are awesome! I bought some on a whim last weekend and added it to marinara and YUMMY! There are 3 packages in a box and 1 package is a good size serving - they are like 120 calories, 1 gram of fat, 6 grams of fiber and 26 grams of protein. All you do is pop a package in the microwave for 90 seconds and you are ready to go - they are even seasoned well!! Really you gotta try these things! Have a great weekend!