This picture makes me cry!

This picture makes me cry!
Thought it was time to change my picture

Monday, October 1, 2007

Paranoia, Panic Attacks and Hot Flashes!

So today is my 3rd day of being completely off of the anti-depressants and sleeping meds. I accidently forgot to take my medicine on Friday night so I got a few days jump start on detoxing completely. Fortunately, it wasn't as bad as it could have been and it is much better that I ended up going through this while I was home with the hubby. He was INCREDIBLE to say the least.....Friday was just a bad day all around - I was tired, feeling crappy and in a funk. I got home and found my new diamond and sapphire ring that he bought me.....the one I had been wanting - I was sooooo excited!! He spent the rest of the weekend talking me off the ledge - one of the lovely withdrawl symptons from the Effexor is panic attacks and hot flashes. I was convinced Saturday night that someone was in our house and then I started crying......poor Ken - he was so tired and I was acting like a lunatic......he was very patient and kept reminding me that he wouldn't let anything happen to me. Even thinking back on it makes me tear up because most guys would have rolled over and gone to sleep but not him......he stayed up with me and literally kept me from totally having a melt down. Yesterday was a little less dramatic but I was just in a fog and really worn out. My sweet Ken went to the grocery store with me and helped around the house........I ended the day by going to bed fairly early and trying to sleep it off.

That leads me up today which is day 3 and I feel good.........still struggling with my memory (I managed to take way too many blood sugar pills on Saturday because of this) and a bit of fogginess but all in all, I'm feeling almost a 100%. I didn't make it to the gym over the weekend but I didn't do horrible in the food department - I will be hitting the gym tonight and weighing in on Wednesday. My bod bud has her weigh in on Wednesday so I thought I would make the switch so we can celebrate together!! Not to mention in my fragile mental condition on Friday - I didn't think that duking it out with the scale was a good idea!

I went back and looked over my food/exercise journal for the week and see that I wasn't too bad - I averaged approx. 26 points a day and I earned about 28 activity points throughout the week so I'm not sure if I will see a loss on Wednesday but hopefully I won't see a gain. Thanks for all the encouragement and advice during this trying time.........this hasn't been any fun but Colette was right when she said that sex would be more fun - LMAO!!! I HEART you all and I have gone back and read/re-read your comments over and over - those and my hubby have been what has kept me going - oh yeah and exercise has helped too!!


Candace said...

Bless Ken's soul. Of course, one would expect support at a time like this and I'm so glad you got some. It can only get better now.

Diet Coke and Zingers said...

I wish Kens like that really did come in a box. I'd buy myself a few!!! QUESTION: How long have you and Ken been a couple? Was he around for the chubby Barbie years?

WeightBGone said...

Ken sounds like a great supportive guy. I'm glad he is because you deserve the very best.

I'm so happy to hear you are feeling better. I'm sure coming off the meds was no easy feat but you have succeeded and I am proud of you.

Have a great week!!

Scale Junkie said...

Your Ken sounds wonder! Enjoy the beautiful ring! I agree that exercise helps with my emotional state, its a night and day difference. I just started exercising again yesterday and I already feel semihuman again.

MMalloy said...

Thanks for checking in on me. I have missed you guys too and I am glad to be back into the "swing of things". I am so glad to hear you are past the worst. I was 18 when I tried to take myself of the ADs the first time. I never would have guessed how hard it could be. I am so glad you are able to come off, and things will seems normal again, I promise!!
I am excited you will WI on wednesdays, that is my WI day too!!! I will be thinking about you tomorrow and send you some skinny thoughts in my spare time!! (((HUGS)))

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