This picture makes me cry!

This picture makes me cry!
Thought it was time to change my picture

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

I am such an ungrateful wife.....

I can't believe that I forgot to post about my surprise that DH gave me!!! I'm awful because it was really, incredibly sweet. So I have been struggling with my appearance and the whole weight gain thing.....hubby tells me everyday that I'm beautiful but I feel fat and frumpy most of the time. Regular clothes don't fit and neither do maternity clothes - I mean, NO ONE told me that my excess skin was going to fill out aka my pannus. It's gross - really gross and I hate it....I love the bump that is growing up top but having 15 pounds of excess skin hanging is not a pretty sight - okay sorry - I've gone off on a Barbie tangent as usual.

So, I've been feeling pretty crummy. I go from feeling totally ugly to feeling completely undeserving of this pregnancy and guilty for not just basking in the glow of finally being pregnant. That coupled with swelling and fatigue has made me a bit teary for the most part. Well about 3 weeks ago I noticed a strange charge on the hubby's credit card - $160 to be exact. I called him and questioned it, to which he responded, I bought you a present. Now hubby occasionally brings flowers or a card but he isn't a real gift giver with the exception of birthdays, anniversary, christmas. I NEVER expected a gift from him. So he says it won't be ready for a week or so and I'm thinking dear god what has he done??? A week passes by and he is like a schoolboy. I get home from work and he has me sit on the couch with my eyes closed. Out he comes all sing songy and busting at the seams - I open my eyes and started crying immediately. He took my magazine cover and had it framed - it was beautiful and just that he thought of it meant so much to me. Of course then he starts telling me that the woman on that cover is the same person that is standing in front of him only now I'm more beautiful because I'm carrying our child - that he is so proud to be my husband......I can't remember all of it but it was one of the sweetest things anyone has ever done for me - somedays I really love that guy!


goodbyetoallfat said...

Ah Steph,

That is sooooooo sweet! You have a lovely hubby!

Best wishes,

Amanda said...

That is so sweet!!! What an awesome guy!

JODI said...

you're not ungrateful by any means... perhaps it's the hormones making you forget to tell us what a great hubby you have! what an awesome present! :o)

Miss July...not...yet said...

What a beautiful thing for your dh to say and do. Aren't the men in our lives true blessings?
Your baby bump is adorable too btw.
As for the post about crying when you found out that you weren't pg again...I remember doing the same thing. Except my dh best friend called and said she was pg, but wasn't sure who the father was and I was not pg and had been trying for well over a year. Horrible day and I couldn't be happy for her.
I am so glad you are getting thru this and the weight gain will come off.

Candace MacPherson said...

Woohoo - Ken is really stepping up. Baby's do strange things to men - watch out;)

~Les said...

Oh, Steph. That is just such a touching thing he did. He's a keeper. :0)


Kate said...

You made me cry....or more like he did. Damn you ;)

Your a lucky girl :)

Superjayman's Battle of the Bulge said...

How awesome is that? Way awesome!! You have a great hubby!!

Dawn said...

OH WOW STEPHANIE!! That is SO SWEET! What a very thoughtful thing to do. You are lucky to have him. Oh, what a great Dad he is going to be.

Katie Hallison said...

Wow. You have a loving husband, Steph. Both of you are lucky to have each other. He's lucky to have a wife who's very determined and of course, beautiful as you. Just look at what you have become! This post just reminds me of how happy I am to have my hubby, too. I'm considering blepharoplasty before we fly to Florida this summer for a vacation with family and friends. He's very supportive 'coz he'll be the one to pay all the expenses.