tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8069087084873863028.post943764470652007133..comments2023-11-03T06:28:37.718-07:00Comments on Where The Heck is Barbie???: Heal the wound but leave the scarAnonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10635172141262602694noreply@blogger.comBlogger5125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8069087084873863028.post-67797302363621196812008-06-01T08:04:00.000-07:002008-06-01T08:04:00.000-07:00What a great post! I want to leave "fat girl" beh...What a great post! I want to leave "fat girl" behind so much, but she is still such a big part of me. I get so angry when she rears her ugly head. I've struggled with depression for years and I have a therapist who I see regularly, and this topic is really tough. It impacts so many parts of my life. Chris gets upset because he thinks I'm beautiful, and when I start criticizing myself he gets angry. I want to see myself through his eyes. But I also want to be realistic and remember that losing weight is not going to miraculously make my life perfect. Ugh! I hate this deep stuff!!!Carolinehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06554987689002177445noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8069087084873863028.post-13046656810504657642008-05-31T15:44:00.000-07:002008-05-31T15:44:00.000-07:00"Some days I want to pretend that I got asked out ..."Some days I want to pretend that I got asked out and had boyfriend and that people liked me. ....... I never had those experiences. I spent the first 25 years of my life trapped inside a fat suit"<BR/><BR/>Steph your blog today speaks volumes to me -- now imagine what life is like for me, when I have spent the first 40 years of my life trapped inside a fat suit (well perhaps only 30, because I was slim until I was 9).<BR/><BR/>I so want to get to the end of this tunnel, but like you I won't every be able t change history, or to fake a "happy" slim childhood that did not exist .... I will have to live with the memories of hurts I caused to myself, and caused to me by others during my "fat" years.<BR/><BR/>I am looking forward to saying goodbye to them!<BR/><BR/>Good luck with your pregnancy.<BR/><BR/>Best wishes,<BR/>SharonAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8069087084873863028.post-32176017289710291212008-05-31T08:17:00.000-07:002008-05-31T08:17:00.000-07:00Step thanks for sharing, and putting your feelings...Step thanks for sharing, and putting your feelings into words, though hard and difficult i'm sure. I feel your pain on the infertilty front, unless you've gone thru it, you'll never know the feelings associated with it. The worst I found was have a constant monthly reminder, seeming to scream at me "YOUR NOT PREGNANT". Even now as a mother, I still get twangs of bitterness each *month*.<BR/>All you/we can do from this point is find a way to heal. May you find your path...tallmamahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17810774408415789471noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8069087084873863028.post-59405399358667928622008-05-30T13:24:00.000-07:002008-05-30T13:24:00.000-07:00I agree, great post! I'm glad I'm not the only one...I agree, great post! I'm glad I'm not the only one that feels that way. I went from being the skinny girl to the fat one now to the medium one. I know the things that got me there and no matter how many times I look back and see how far I've come over the years, I also seem to dwell on stuff that I wish I didn't. Like infertility (still ongoing), the fact that I "need" to be on a diet for life unlike the people who can eat anything, a failed marriage and the ongoing work with a new relationship. Now, after about 10 years of this, I've decided its time to "deal" with the past and I'm using a counselor to help me. Its awesome. When you start to deal with the past it makes the future seem so much easier. I don't want to forget my past but I think one of my biggest fears, especially with my weight, is that I'm going to repeat history. Once I learn that I'm NOT the same person and I've been maintaining for a few years I think I won't have to look at it and feel like I'm going to cry. <BR/><BR/>You've come a long way and worked hard for what you have (weight, baby). Don't lose sight of that.Sarahhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00038690128930880388noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8069087084873863028.post-18288815853618984512008-05-30T12:27:00.000-07:002008-05-30T12:27:00.000-07:00Great Post! And your so right, as much as you want...Great Post! And your so right, as much as you want to forget your past, it's a part of who you are, and who you've become, so really, would you want to leave it behind?Katehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15502681882561955975noreply@blogger.com